I remember the years of building credit, freelancing, working a 9 to 5, and going to college. Nothing prepared me for single mother life. Work-life balance isn’t anything compared to balancing life, career, and mom life. This single mother’s life can take an emotional and mental toll on you. I stayed home so that I can enjoy “mom life.” I couldn’t see the path of single mother life when I made that decision, but life happens. Credit score went down, went back to work, feeling horrible when I spend eight hours at work when my child looks in my eyes, balancing bills and all the items my child needs and wants. I didn’t know struggle until this phase of my life. I didn’t know what being exhausted was until I was a single mother.
I was tired of being tired.
I am balancing schedules, daycare costs, diapers, sickness, activities, education, entertainment, raising her to be a kind human being, and more. All while, I am trying to get a little me time, social time and get this business up and running. People say it takes a village to raise a child. I understand the magnitude of that statement. Yeah, you get recognition for being a single mother who is working, freelancing, and raising your child to your best ability. That recognition doesn’t pay bills or give you a 20-minute break in the bathroom while the child is knocking on the bathroom door for them to come in and play with everything in the bathroom while you’re in the shower.
I am tired of praying for better nights.
Now, this isn’t just an article to b*tch and complain about being a single mother. I am just keeping it real with you that this life isn’t for everyone. This life is full of struggles.
I am tired of my heart getting colder.
My daughter does put a battery in my back when I feel depleted like I can’t go on. When I want to give up on my dreams, I look into her eyes and want to be the “superwoman,” she paints me out to be. I never want to let her down. I don’t’ want to let myself down.
One day we won’t have to want for anything. Bills will be paid automatically without having to check my checking account before swiping.
One day I won’t have to maneuver my money or stress about my next dollar.
One day we will be enjoying life for more moments at a time.
One day I will be spending less time at work and away from home and more quality time with her.
As a single mother, you have to keep going because the struggle will end one day.
I am meant to do great things in this life. Using my words to make people think and feel something they didn’t before. This life of conflict is only a momentary lapse that won’t last too much longer because I am manifesting a life of creativity, abundance and prosperity full of love.
Manifesting thousands of dollars in my bank account every month while educating my child at home, working during nap time and bedtime, business meetings with other moms and dads, and working in my home office while in my PJs. Sharing my story with others so they can avoid all this pain and struggle I’ve experienced in my life. One day soon I will be walking this path and looking forward to experiencing this life I call freedom.
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